Last night as well as the night before, I didn't get much sleep, for different reasons. One being J has been waking up a few times, and I haven't figured out why, also a thunder storm, things like that. Also thinking and can't get back to sleep when I'm awake feeding E. One thing that I've thought about is the purity of our children. Purity of their little physical bodies, but also their spiritual and mental (everyday life experiences). I've wondered how we go about keeping them pure, in a such a sinful world. Keeping them in the world, but out of the world at the same time. You hear about children being molested, exposed to bad movies/music/profanity, etc. and it's so hard on the heart. They are so innocent and their lives are ruined due to the sin of others. Most of them don't know the peace through Jesus Christ either. I know our God is bigger than all human thinking, but sometimes get overwhelmed with my job as a mother. (the lack of sleep always causes things that are just a thought, and makes them into a huge overwhelming mountain to climb).
Although we don't have a huge family, I have been getting comments now about having my "hands full" since having baby#3. I was reading another blog that I've been enjoying lately (The Homemaking Cottage, on my favorites blog list), and a mother had a response to that comment, and that is "better full than empty". It kind of puts it all in perspective, that even though there may be trials, worries, lack of sleep, etc.; these precious children are the best gift we can be given. As I am writing this, L came up and said, "can I tuddle a little bit with you". So, he sat on my lap a second and then I let him down, and he said "well, actually I'd like to tuddle a lot. That was too short." How can you not smile with that love? I wouldn't trade it for any selfish "me time" although I do crave the "me time" every now and then. Especially now with a baby that needs me so regularly.
